My boyfriend who broke my virg!nity is pushing me to the limit, and I am contemplating suicide

Please strictly hide my identity.Hmmm… comrades I am really broken but I need help. It goes this way, my boyfriend and I have been friends since 2018. And we started dating somewhere 2019 and 2020. Things were smooth and we love each other very well. Both families got to know about us and each accepted well.

As smooth as we were I wasn’t really ready for relationship when he started talking about it that was 2019. So he was seeing some small girl bi like that according to him he was just satisfying his sexual urge before I got serious and came back to give him response to date him and the small girl too were separating.

I was worried cos the girl used to call at night and all that but he assured me that it’s me he loves and was waiting for me.

Fast forward they finalize their breakup. And he and I continued peacefully. I fell for him soo deeply that I don’t fear to post him or talk about him. He was all over me. In fact he wasn’t my first guy but first guy I loved Naturally. Growing up I didn’t want to indulge myself in s3z so it was just once I tried which didn’t really enter.

What brought me here is that, he was doing his further studies in and he promised me when he’s done then we marry. So he told me to be preparing myself and I’m doing just that. Due to his constant assurance of marriage I don’t like any other guy no matter how rich you are and all my hope is him.

My parents are no more and I take him as my everything plus God. Since he started his further studies when I’m going to his end I don’t bother him for money or anything cos I’m also working even though I’m yet to be Posted. I buy him nice things when going to him as long as I have money on me but this guy never gave me gift before not even on special occasions yet I don’t mind I assume not all men knows that.

He recently became so rude. Something I will say low tone he will just shout at me. So I confronted him why he acts that way even though his Mom told me he very stubborn so I should take care of him, I didn’t know this was what she meant. He recently changed his password to his phone because I saw him chatting his exes not just one of them. And the chat didn’t seem like he lost interest in them.

We don’t stay together he is at the northern Region teaching and I’m managing some private work in Ashanti. So I go there twice a month. Lately whenever I call his his line is busy on another call even at night and won’t pick mine for hours. So I kept asking him if he’s seeing another girl and he said no and he will be bored and bored that I have Trust Issues And can’t be with me anymore.

I can’t take a quit now cos I’ve sack all the guys in my life just because I trusted him and I’ve victimized myself ,everyone on my contacts knows he’s the one and now breaking up. i took knife that I want to end my life and he stopped me.

I took some pills too and he throw it away said we should continue but I feel he’s just afraid I kill myself while I’m with him cos he still uses I’ll words like “I’m not even special girl, I’m not tall and more”. I’m am too broken 💔 and don’t know what to do anymore.

I don’t think I can quit. But I’m scared he’s just going to waste my time and hurt me more cos this is the second time he did wrong and yet instead of saying sorry for ignoring me he rather ask for breakup.

Please what can I do to make this work between us..? And if possible connect me to any good guy who is serious so I can forget this guy and leave his life. Help a Sister please

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please post for me…since it’s Oct Take out I wish I could find one that will accept me as Cute as I am very beautiful and intelligent.